Ah, yes, now this is hell. I hit a brick wall realizing that I'm not gonna be in school anymore while realizing I still need to get adjusted here, and then I get called in by my boss today to talk about my work. Needless to say running into two brick walls is not fun. Really none of this is a big deal. Missing school is just me missing old times, and it's all in my head. The job thing isn't that major either. I just hate to bug people or talk up myself and that's what people want here so they know what to give who, etc. It's what I thought it would be, but I now it keeps me thinking that nobody here thinks I can do anything, nor do it well, or at all. That's probably not the case. H. John has been really helpful in this all. I'm assuming he talked to Scott (my boss) since Scott said he talked to a lot of people. I have a good indication of who gave him a bad review of me, and who a good one. And if I'm right I could really give a shit cuz they're bastards anyway. It just seems to knock me down a bit. But after hitting two brick walls in two days, what did I expect?